Trusting God with everything
We had been living in Thailand for just over 9 months and as a family we had adjusted well on most fronts. Our kids, up until now, had risen to the challenge of distance education, a different way of life to the one they were used to and many different foods.
Then rather suddenly our middle child began to show signs of not coping with living in Thailand. He started neglecting his schoolwork and went from an A student to getting C’s for assessments, he was not submitting work nor was he attending his online classes. He was logging in for the roll and then lying to his teacher, saying that he had internet issues before leaving the class. This deceit flowed into his behaviour and attitude at home, generally he was just not himself.
As a result of this decline in his behaviour, and particularly his attitude to school, I started questioning the wisdom of us living here: “if we were still in Australia he would be loving school and he would have many activities to keep him busy”. I began to think about home and justified these thought patterns by saying that we would be better off back in Australia and that all these problems would disappear back home.
As I prayed through my disillusionment God repeatedly showed me verses in the Bible that reminded me that I was to trust Him.
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.” Isaiah 26:3 NIV
In his gracious patience and a short space of time, God revealed once more to me that He is trustworthy and that He does have plans to prosper me (and my family) and not to harm us. I was reminded that God led us here (Thailand), He has blessed us with Thai friends, He has kept our family healthy, we have had countless experiences that we would never have had if we had stayed in Australia and so many other blessings. I have much to be thankful for and I am grateful for the period of disillusionment as it forced me to re-evaluate why I am here and to recommit myself to trusting God with everything, even my very precious children.